Unfortunately there are some situations there aren't ways out of.
The only good way out of this mess is if I won the lottery, or got a new job that somehow paid me a ton very, very quickly. AND if they came up with a cure to FMS, or at least a way to help the pain. AND if they came up with a way to wipe the mind of specific memories.
Unfortunately, none of the above things are going to happen.
But, don't worry.
I can't cope with the pain enough to do myself any serious damage.